What the addition of T.O. will do for the Cincinnati Bengals

As we approach the decision for free agent Terrell Owens here in the next 48 hours or so people wonder what kind of impact he'll have if he was added to the team? I will tell you the impact he will have will be major! He'll stop any arguement of which team in the north is the favorite, hands down the Bengals will be. In my opinion their already the favor, but many say the Baltimore Ravens are. Imagine T.O. and Chad on the same field for the same team, I don't care how big their ego's are how could you stop them, don't forget about 1st round pick Jermaine Gresham, and you pick who you want to go in the slot. Also don't forget about Ced Benson as the run threat with Bernard Scott Complamenting him and on top of all that Carson Palmer throwing the football. This Will not only make this Bengals team the favorite in the North but you could make a pretty damn good arguement for them as the favor in the AFC period, they'll definitely make them the most deadliest offense in the AFC. I know your saying it takes more than offense to win, and your right it do, but do I need to say anything about this D? I think last year play should speak for itself. Additions like Adam "Pacman" Jones, Carlos Dunlap only makes this D even better. This D is unique in it on way, think about how young this D is, Rey Maualuga, Keith Rivers, Leon Hall, John J, Michael Johnson, Peko should I continue? Don't forget about the older Vets like Antwan Odom, Dehani Jones, Brandon Johnson,Robert Gathers, and listen can go on and on. This D is young, and this is another year together under one the best Defensive minds in football Mr. Mike Zimmer who led the D that was 4th in the Nfl last year. Bottom line is this, Adding T.O. to this team will definitely help you more than it will hurt you, talk about having the perfect mix of run pass, or many weapons on offense to choose from, to not add T.O. was a big mistake earlier this year, let's hope they don't make the same mistake twice. I'll be at camp this weekend, I got my fingers crossed, let's hope T.O. is there!

My Roller Coaster Love for You.

Sometimes I just wonder
why did I love you?

Did I love you
For your charming hazel eyes?
Or because your lack of care I feel you have for you and I?


Did I love you
For your sweet and sexy face?
Or I just love the way you purposely had me on a chase?

Did I love you
For your un-resistable innocent smile?
Or is it just because you only allow me to see you every once and a while?

Did I love you
For your funny acting ways?
Or is it just because I feel like I wanna be with you everyday?

Did I love you
Because together we always have fun?
Or is it just because you want allow me to feel like we will ever turn to be one?

Did I love you
For your spotty kindness?
Or is it just because I hate to feel the loneliness?

Did I love you
For your gentle tender touch?
Or maybe because you never love me enough?

Did I love you
For your lack of giving attention?
Or is it just because you try by all means
to tell me your blueprint and intentions?

I think you only tell me what you know I want to hear.
for every time we sat in the car late night and discussed the same topic that ended with me leaving, mentally unclear and full of fear.

Did I love you
For you make me feel so un-secure?
Or is it because every now and then, for weeks and sometimes months you would disappear

Did I love you
Because with you I always feel so right?
Or is it because even when you made me feel high as a kite, I knew you would shoot me down by the end of the night?

I will probably never be able to figure out why I loved you
No, It's not just that, it's not just this
I just loved you
Because simply you are YOU!

A Middle Child's Relationship With His Mother

I Think it's rather important to start this off by saying that I love my mother to death and wouldn't change her for the world. I'm not sure if anybody knows, even family, but me and my ma don't have the best of relationship. I think our relationship went bad long time ago honestly, back in my Hughes high school days. Anybody that knew me back in my Hughes days know I was an ASS, I mean I was BAD very bad. My last year at Hughes, It got so bad to the point my mother literally gave up on me. She told the teacher "Do whatever you got to do with him, just don't call me no more.". I mean it was bad though I have to be honest. She was getting calls everyday sometimes multiple days straight. It's nothing like having your mom give up on you, nothing like that feeling. The person you care about the most, the person who's opinion is the only one that counts to you.I never really complain about it to much cause it did change me forever in not only a bad way, but a good way as well. Good, cause I woke up, I got my act together, change schools and been very successful since then and turn into the fairly decent guy that I am now. Bad, cause I've never forgave my mother for that and probably never will. Me and my mother could fool you, the same way we have my family, we can talk, hang out, laugh and smile with each other and make it seem like we have a great relationship, but as they say things aren't always what they seem to be. I can't stress to you how much I LOVE my mother, I don't want you to think I'm some idiot that don't know how bless I am to have the type of mother I have or a mother at all! Anybody that knows my mom, would probably say she's a great lady, and that she is. Beautiful, Spiritual, careful, and just a overall great human being, but none of you came up with her, not that it was hard too, but none of you effected her the way I may have. I'm not sure what, or how bad my BAD years at Hughes effected my mom, but when someone give up on you, it had to be bad right?
You know how they say the middle child is the neglected one, well that's exactly how I feel sometimes. My mom have 2 other kids. Both boys, one older and one younger than me. They say a parent always love the oldest cause they're the first born, love the youngest because they're the baby, and the middle just fit somewhere in between. Sometimes I can feel that personally. My Lil brother is a spoil brat, and my oldest do seem to have the closest relationship with my mom between the three of us. I feel that my future is bright. but it do scares me. I feel like once I leave my mothers house, I also will lose contact with my mom. That's not necessarily what I want, but that's seems to be the road we're going down. I know you thinking what is the problem? Why do you continue to feel this way after so many years. To tell you the truth it's many reason that I won't get all into but one main one. That one main reason is cause my mother attitude STINKS! My mom is a good person, but just like us all, she has flaws. Her main flaw is the attitude she has, maybe it just towards us, her kids, or me. My mom is the type that if and when she gets mad at anything she takes it out on everybody. If you know me, or ever get to know me, you will know that I don't have an attitude at all(unless it involves sports.) I never really get to mad at anything or anybody, if I do it's never for long. I rarely get upset(unless sports are involved.)I know everybody is not like me, but since I don't have an attitude, I don't associate myself or deal with people with attitudes. Rather it's a friend, girl, or parent I don't deal with it or stay around people with attitude. Attitudes is another topic for another day but my mom has one of the worst attitudes I ever seen, and this is why we'll never get along, it's like one them things I just can't deal with.
You know how they say,"Man tend to be mostly attracted to women that's reminds them of there mother, or carry similar characteristic or personality traits. Many think that's true, and there is many cases out there that proves that theory. I must say that I would never ever give a girl like my mom the time of day, I couldn't. Even if I did, There is no way it would last or workout. My mom been with the same guy for about 16 yrs and married for 14 of those, so it pretty evident that she makes a good wife, I'm not saying that she don't I'm just saying the woman I give my life too couldn't be like her as the mom I know her to be. I say that cause I can never look at my mom as anything but my mom but my last and only true love was a lot similar to my mom and also had a Stinky attitude and as you can see didn't work, I think we we're together all of 6 months, that's also another topic for another day. Because I don't have that same attitude problem my mom has, I know that when I have kids of my own some day I will raise them a lot differently but similar in some ways if that makes any sense. I'm not saying I'll be a better parent, I don't know we'll just have to wait and see, my point in saying that, is that I'll raise my kids with a different mentality, with a different take and outlook on things. A lot of things our parents do may in our opinion seem unfair, and that went on a lot in my life. I don't mean to sound bitter or nothing like that, but my little brother is spoiled and to be honest the oldest one was a one point as well. Example, there was a point in time where my oldest brother got every pair of new Jordan's that game out, and they came out on a month to two month basis back then, me I've never had a pair of Jordan's in my life! Seriously. Examples for the little brother, where do I start? He gets $20 dollars a week for lunch, when I was in high school,I was lucky to get $10. Small?? Yes, but things that kids can pick up. When I was in high school I had to get a job to get things I wanted, my baby brother on the other hand get anything he ask for and more! At the same age as they we're when they got showered with these things, I never had anything. don't get me wrong, I never intend to sound as if I was bummy, cause had more than most, just didn't have it like they did. I know I wasn't the best kid in school but my brothers wasn't angels either, especially the little one. The oldest was a good all around student. I believe kids she be treat as close to equally as possible, and I command my mom for equally providing the things we needed to survive, but no matter how closed minded you want to be the material things count too especially at that age. I feel there has always been favoritism and it's never been towards me. I'm better for it today, because I don't need the material things now days to be happy, or to feel good about myself. I don't need the nice ride, or the Biggest TVs or the newest hot shoes, and latest fashion gear(whatever is "HOT" now days.)Ha don't I sound like that neglected middle child people talk about???
To close this out, once again I must say I love my mom to death, and owe her the world. Rather good or bad she has influenced me in both ways and help me to become the man I have grown to be. As we grow from babies, to toddlers, kids, teens, adolescents, young adults, to adults(If that's the right order) we come up under our parents wing, under our parents supervision. I understand we our raised by our parents and we learn from them and there parenting techniques no doubt. I have also grown to learn, that we'll never be a spitting image of our parents, we'll never grow up to be the exact way they want us to be, and will never grow up and hold on to every lesson or thing they may have passed down to us. Why??? Simply because we grow up differently, we are raise differently as well. I guarantee our parents didn't raise us exactly how our grandparents raised them. And this is not a bad thing at all cause the world changes, new trends start, new patterns start and as time goes, we get wiser, we develop better techniques and sometimes we have to teach and learn differently as the things around us change. Something I like to call growing on the fly. As parents(Which I'm not one yet)we always say we want to give our children the life we never had, teach them things we had to learn the hard way. Understand that no matter how hard you try, your children will never be exactly how you want them to be. The best you can do is teach them and raise them to the best of your ability. My mom did a hell of a job with us, I hear all the time,"Your parents raised a fine young man" that being true, I'm sure I didn't turn out the exactly how my mom wanted me to be, but I'm sure she is satisfy with how I turned out. What my mom did was provide us with a great Platform, she taught us the core values of life, the most important things in life, how to work, how things may not go your way all the time, how to earn things, she rewarded us, and she disciplined us when necessary, she also shared lessons with us that she went through, bad and good, in attempt to show us that nobody is perfect, though I may never have the same relationship I had with my mom back when I was born up and til 2006, or the same type relationship my brothers have with her, I can always be grateful and thankful for the platform she provided me with so when the day come that I have kids of my own. Amazing with all that said, I just realized in a sense my kids will possess something that my mom once gave to me.

If only you can see

If only you can see my eyes now
you will read all the untold words
If only you can see through them
you will understand that for me you are the world

If only you can see the smile on my face
when i receive your email, message or phone call
you will know that you have captured me all in all

If only you can see what happens to me the moment we meet
you would understand after 4 years why I get so upset.
If only you can feel how fast my heart beat when i'm in your presents
you will know that you are the only one who makes me feel complete

A Little Lesson in Love for us Soft Hearted Guys

I had a friend of mine say to me "Dunn bro, Why do I fall in love so easily man, I'm such soft dude, man I be out here falling in love with girls quick, I get easily attached man, I need to get help cause i'm tired of getting hurt, having a broken heart and hurt feelings." My reply was "Bro don't feel bad, thats me times two, I been in love so much as a 21 year old, sometimes I think i'm gone run out of love before I even find me a wife." Talking to him for a lil bit, I told him that I will write this article specifically for him and see if it could help him out with his situation. Man that love thing is tough. We all are made differently, some of us are made to be the soft type that gets easily attached to people we are attracted too. I use to think that I was the only one but I see you are the same way. Bro, let me tell you, if anybody know your pain it's me, i'm the softest dude there is when it comes to this. From the outside looking in you can never tell man but I done fell in love so many times and been shot down, heart broke and rejected each time, thats why i'm single today. You ever been so in love with a person that you allow them to use the shit out of you? Not only do they use you, but you enjoy it, you like it, deal and put up with it just cause you want to be in their presences, just cause anyway possible you won't to be part of them. With that said man, the most important thing is never love someone more than you love yourself, Is that possible? Yes trust me it is, and when you allow that to happen your in BIG trouble. From that point on that person control your life and if you get the right one they will use that to their advantage and not think twice about it. I seriously know that it can be really tough getting through this especially when the one you have fell for don't want to have nothing to do with it. It is very important that you don't change yourself. Love always make us want to change ourselves, rather it's good or bad love always makes us want to change are craft especially when we like a person that don't want to have nothing to do with us, we figure that if we change what we THINK or they say they don't like maybe then they'll develop a liking for us. So untrue this is, 99% of the time people never give you the REAL reason why they don't like you, they give you a reason that is good enough to get them pass the moment, think about it bro, me and you do it too, everybody guilty of that, so what the point of changing yourself? The only time it's ok to change yourself in my opinion is when your married, and with the one you will be with for eternity, then it's ok to change in efforts to make ya'll a better couple. Nobody knows why it so much harder to fall out of love with a person, nobody know how to ease the pain away. Me, I don't know how I do it a lot of times, I use my career a lot, me being so in love with my career it always give me something to fall back on. Bro you got to stay in touch with your hobbies, figure out the things you can do that takes your mind off everything and do them, You want the same thing in a career i do but you probably don't love as much as I do, but there are things you love so much that it grabs your intention totally and nothing else matter for the time your involved in those things. There is no blueprint to falling out of love, I wish it was, if it was i'll kill for it. I have so many love stories for you that all end badly, that for more 1 on 1 type thing. I don't know why it work that way man, why we can have the ones we don't want, and not get the time of day from the ones we want. I guess that how you know you have the one, when that day come that you meet someone you fall for, and they like you back just as much if not more I guess that how you know there the one. It's important that you remember that your young man, 20 with a very bright future, remember what's more important in life right now, and focus on those things.I know a lot of the guys we know mutually have relationships, and when your whole circle has relationships it do make it a little harder but we have to wait our turn develop a sense of patiences. I feel like i'm not giving you much in this article man but this is a tough subject to try to help somebody on, there's really no right or wrong way to accomplishing this problem, you kind of have to develop your own way bro, you know i'm here and will do whatever in my power to help you out. May your life be forever changed when you find that happiness your pursuing. I can't wait to be there when you exchange them vows, remember to keep your nose out the sky, keep your head to the clouds and know bro that one day man one day the special lady gone come and change your life! Good luck Love you brother!

Firefighter Combat Challenge and The Fireman That Compete.

Let me start by saying that, my love for the job and anything associated with the job is stronger than my love for anything else in the world. Also, let it be known that I have meet some of the most coolest, friendly, and best people in the world from the fire service. Most of my friends are or was a part of the fire service at one point of time, and I’m pretty sure that as I get older and more experienced that I will meet new and more wonderful, unique and nice people from the fire service.
I felt it was necessary to let that be known, because most of what I have left to say will probably upset some people, especially the brothers of mine that participates in the famous Scott's Firefighter Combat Challenge. Now as we know this event is like the competitive sport specifically for firefighters, that simulates some of the everyday skills and maneuvers that we have to perform. Most people that compete are firefighters or have some kind of relation with the fire service. I compete in my first ever event couple months ago, I did O.K. for a first timer and so did my team.
The event in itself is fun, I had a blast, but it’s not the event that poses as the problem to me, it is the people that participate, yes that mean the firemen. I love my brothers to death and have the utmost respect for anybody who do this job, pursuit the job, or have any ambition to do this job. Some people that compete and do the challenge are some of the most cockiness, arrogant, and big ego possessed SOB’s I’ve ever meet in my life. I may come of a little judgmental and stereotypical but I don’t care this is my blog and I’m say whatever the hell I want, however I want to say it, you don’t like there is a X in the right hand corner, go click that.
I guess I give the guys in this profession too much credit. I view them like some of public do, as these most wonderful, heroic, night & shine & armor type guys. Completely for getting that they’re human beings like your local mailman, or your family attorney, they put they pants on the same way everybody else and yes they shit stank like everyone else as well. Let most of these guys tell or show it should I say, they shit don’t stank, and they are a different breed of human than everybody else. These guys walk around with their chest out, muscle man shirts on, eating their fruit and veggie sandwiches with their jug of protein mix; making protein shakes every 5 min.
When it comes to working out, MAN! Totally different ballpark. They have to be the fast, have to be the strongest, have to have the most top finishes, and have to possess the most awards. Put crazy amounts of weight on a bar and MAX OUT. I never understood maxing out, never will. I mean how much are you really doing lifting one rep of anything? SERIOUSLY?? They have to be in the mainly clubs and group, and when inside that group they have to be the best in that group.
If you must be Mr. strong man, and that wannabe onyx of guy, that’s fine. What really gets to me and really hit me the wrong way is, when these guys feel they’re better than somebody else, when they look down at someone as if they a giant and people should bow down to them. (I tried not to use this is as case and point but it’s an perfect example so here it is) I’m currently and a Firefighter agility class. I guess you can call it “the place where combat soldiers are created” Some of the people that participate in class are guys that been around a while, already did most of the stuff we do and already have at least a year of firefighter combat experience under their belt. If I took you to a workout one day, I bet a week’s pay you could point out the area inside the facility where these guys are. No, it’s not cause they’re a lot bigger and stronger, or cause they look any different than anybody else except me (only African American) but it’s because every morning they come in and run to they lil corner where all guys like them go and talk and speak among each other as if they the only ones in the room. I mean you can literally feel the vibe and body language waves that said “I’m the shit” coming off their body as they walk pass you. They walk right pass don’t speak to you, if they look at you it’s a look as if to say, “What are you waiting for, you better acknowledge me.”
I’m just now getting in to this Firefighter Combat sport, but I’m starting to believe that it taught to be this way, like it a club that you must work your way into, and once you graduate or get accept to this club you get your ASS-HOLE card. The instructor gave these guys instructor T-Shirts so I guess that gives them the right to be different to be better than me and my classmates. Even during workouts, they yell and scream at the students as they workout, I guess they call it encouraging them, but nothing they saying is usually positive. I try to tell them, if you really trying to encourage someone, its call constructive criticism, yell and scream but make sure what’s coming out your mouth is positive.
I could go on all day about this but I’m not. I’ve had a total wakeup call in the last few weeks, I use you to be that guy that couldn’t get combat challenge off my mind, who couldn’t stop thinking about the next time I was gone, who wanted to be fast rookie ever, who lost sleep thinking about Lexington and worlds in Myrtle Beach at the end of the year, that WAS me. Now, I can careless rather I ever compete again, I can careless if I ever get a top ten finish, I can careless if I make the 5 man time I’ll be trying out for in the next month or so. It just not that important as it was a couple months ago when I was getting ready for my first event. A good friend of mine that’s a lil older, compete as a Cincinnati state student before and was pretty successful he told me “Dunn, as I got older in the combat world, I learned that most people, the challenge defines them, it makes them who they are. Whatever you do don’t get so deep into it that it defines you.” If it turns me into what I have been witness to the last few weeks I not be around it much longer. I can’t be that guy who better than a brother who isolate myself and my team from the rest of the fireman family. People it is a brotherhood, you see the outside but just like brothers and families, when you get inside access, It’s no different, there are serious issues within as well.

Days Teach Me.....

Days teach me
To always dream
However it may never come true
But that's the best way
To live life through

Days teach me
To dream so high
Never give up and always try
Never let go or say goodbye

Days teach me
That when there is darkness
For sure dawn is the next
And when everything is so tiring
For sure there would be time to rest

Days teach me
To always care for a friend
Always be true and never pretend
Always love with no end
And the broken hearts try to mend

Days teach me
Never to feel the hate
Always be confident and never hesitate
Always believe in fate

Days teach me
That lovers meet & stay together
And others are apart
So if you are one who have been left behind
Don't cry and suffer
Just search for a new start

Days teach me
The past I must forget
And nothing needs my regret

Days teach me
To open my heart and forgive
Cause that will help me to survive and live

Days teach me
To always offer my helping hand
And never doubt in people when there is no proof
And always try to understand

Days teach me
Not to be shy
If I have done something wrong
But to admit it and be proud that I have learned
A lesson that will help me to be strong